Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Surviving Changes

My boys are 5 weeks today and this is the first time I've actually had to sit down and write (and I probably just jinxed myself!). I know time goes fast, but I can't believe how fast it's gone. It really seems like yesterday when we found out. I'm going to skip over the fun rollercoaster of emotional hell, as I'm certain JJ and my close friends and family would love for me to put that he'll behind all of is.
While these past few weeks have been fairly old (we expected the getting up every 2 hours etc), there have been somethings I definitely did not expect. For starters-the questions! My personal favorite: Are they twins? I try so hard not to laugh at this question because it is asked without thinking (I hope). Another favorite: how come you don't know if they are identical or not? (let me say that at this point we don't care if we find out or not). But we don't know because it hasn't been cut and dry. There is a small window at the beginning to find out via ultrasound-and we missed it. Then when we had our next ultrasound the placentas were fused. Then came the umbilical cords. They were so close together, there was no way to determine if it was 1 that split or 2. After we had them, the doc sent everything to pathology, come to find out they were 2 cords, leaving us at square 1. At this point it doesn't matter to us. I do understand the curiosity and that people do mean well. I just love the look on people's faces when we tell them we don't know and are not going to find out. The last question I'm going to write about is one that does bother me-did you conceive them naturally? Again, I know it's the twin curiosity, but I think that's a personal question. Does it make a difference if I was on drugs? (I was not btw). I guess it's just because I don't feel comfortable talking about my health in general.
One learning curve we have had to try and overcome-getting ready in the morning. I go back to work next week, and let me tell you I am terrified for Friday mornings. Looking like I'm getting up at 4 so I can get everyone up, fed, ready to go and dropped off at their appropriate destinations. A second curve we're trying to overcome is formula cost. I knew these suckers would go through their fair share of formula, but my goodness! Boys eat more from the get go.
I was not prepared for the amounts of people that wanted to come over. With that, I was not prepared for the amount of people who got upset when we were simply too exhausted to visit. Our first few days home were filled with my parents visiting and us going to the ranch so Madysen could see her horse and get special time. By the time the second week came around we were so exhausted from ranch visits, or playing with Madysen, visiting with family members. We way over did the visits the first week and got completely burnt out. Even now, the idea of going somewhere so people can see the kids is purely exhausting, and my house is no where near clean enough to let people in!
I will say this, however. We got blessed with amazing children, all 3 of them. The boys are just as laid back as Madysen was. And she is such a helper. I'm not going to pretend they are angels, but all on all, these kids are great!