Ooops!

I knew I was going to be horrible with this but alas, I'm back!
Some things have changed since I was last on here, I'm trying hard to become the person I always wanted to be: positive, caring and elegant while having the courage to stand up for myself. I've always been the person who will drop everything to help friends, yet found friends who would put me on the back burner. Not anymore! I'm moving on from these poisonous "friends" and spending some quality time working on me.
Secondly, I've begun to focus more on training goals and step away from weight lost. Weight is just a number that tends to fluctuate, but knowing I can run 6 miles is something that will be difficult to take away.
Thirdly (after much discussion ans debate), I've decided to not go to graduate school but apply for the radiography program instead. This would allow me to do the 1400 other things I really want to do with my life while making enough money to support the life JJ and I want to live (one with out debt!)
Hopefully there won't be so much time before my next post.
Cheers!

Day 2

I supposed I should explain why I titled this "Discovering Me." I've always been the friend who looses herself in relationships. Not just romantic relationships, friendships as well. I forget who I am, what I believe in and so forth. I this, I've lost a lot of who I am as well as set myself up for major heartbreak. I also tend to trust people easy, too easy. So here I am, post major blowups with good friends, post me being a total bitch for no reason, and post me caring what others think about me (at least I'm pretending I don't care). The past year has been spent with many ups and downs, but mostly figuring out me. The real me. Not some robot morphed into the person I think others want me to be. Some days are easier than others as are all changes. I spend a lot of time chanting to myself (yes, I said chanting) to remember who I want to be.
Well, the kiddo is screaming because we're attempting to give up the binkie. Thus far, she's winning this battle of wills.
'till next time!

Day 1

I swore up and down I'd never do one of these. Then as they became more popular and more of my family moves away, I'm finding it more difficult to stay in touch on a regular basis. This normally wouldn't be an issue, but when you've got a toddler involved, nothing is normal!
For all you family out there, here's an update on our life!
The husband seems pleased with the result of the primary election. The candidate we were really hoping would win, did not. However, the one candidate he really did not want to win, did not. I guess we can't ask for more except to go out and vote for the general election. Every vote counts!
The baby (whom isn't really a baby anymore, 2 in 10 days!) is growing quite considerably. Walking, talking, running, fit throwing, wining...in a nutshell, becoming independent. It sort of breaks my heart that she thinks she no longer needs me, but on the flip side, she's becoming so much fun. We went to Douglas for State Fair a few weeks ago, and she had a blast helping Nana with Jose's poop (as she pointed out, it was EVERYWHERE). I think her favorite part was looking at all the animals. She does love her animals!
For me, well, here I sit in a conundrum. Do I go to Graduate School to continue my Bachelor's Degree only to enroll in a Doctorate Program with the hopes that I can have a job at UW, or do I find a different Graduate Program, i.e. Counseling, and hope that I enjoy that as much as I do teaching?! The few Counseler Ed graduates I've talked to have all said to stay away. If only I could convince my husband to move...there are many more opportunities for me to also be successful anywhere but here.